Make A Choice

I thought I could do it but I just handle it,

Everything we built you about to dismantle it.

The knots still exist and the fear is still there,

But it effects you not because you never cared.

There's a barrier between us, feeling like we distant,

Things are good here and there but never are consistent.

I don't feel complete, it's messing with my head,

It don't feel right, you're like a stranger in my bed.

It can change, it should, but when will that be?

Until then the pain has to keep falling down on me?

I try so hard but I can never get through,

I always get what I want, what I want now is you.

I want it raw, I want it real, I want it blunt, don't you get it?

What's the point of the neglect when you know that you'll regret it?

I got it all, I got the looks, I got the smarts of the street and books,

They got nothing but smiles because they're happiness stealing crooks.

You don't bother to get it back, I've yet to see the effort,

You commit the crime but I'm the one who gets hurt.

Take me into consideration, give my emotions a break,

As much as I love you my sanity is not for you to take.

At some point you'll make a decision, if not by choice then by force,

I refuse to stand by and let desolation takes its course.

Show me what you got, you ain't got nothing to lose,

How about I show you what a day is like walking in my shoes?

Guarantee you'll feel it, the despair and the anguish,

Guarantee you experience the distress and the languish.

I plead with you daily, through my words and through my eyes,

I pray these acts of idiocy are all a bullshit disguise.

Should I be wrong and foolish for even having such a thought,

I shall punish myself for eternity for thinking it wasn't all for naught.

I leave our destiny in your hands, please be wise and do it right,

My future I won't waste, it has the potential to be so bright.

All the smiles you have given, all the love you have shown,

My kisses are for you, all my love, for you alone.